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I'm back in the Garden State after a 7 day road trip. The road trip itself was great. Sharpy, Rosebach, and I left Colorado on Sunday, July 30 after a couple fun days of hiking and packing up my apartment. We made our way into Kansas and saw Monument Rocks just south of Oakley (not the home of the sunglasses place unfortunately). Apparently, it is a part of the national park system. I beg to differ. Of course, they were the highest things in Kansas towering to about 5 stories.

The following day, we stopped off in St. Louis, MO to see a couple of my friends who previously lived in CO with me. We hung out for a night, hit up a couple microbreweries, and then headed north to Chicago after checking out the Arch. We stayed with Sharpy's friend who showed us the Wrigley Field part of town. We then drove towards Detroit, MI to see some of Rosebach's family. On the way, Sharpy took a dip in Lake Michigan. Once again, one of my favorite bodies of water.

In Michigan, we crashed at Jeff's aunt and uncle's place, and then made our way to Canada. We reached Niagara Falls later that day and experienced all the fun tourist activities in town.

From there, it was the long haul back to Boston. I stayed for a day or two and got a great walking tour of the city, topped off by a long drink in the bar at the top of the Prudential Building. Very cool view of the entire skyline.

Sharpy and I returned to the Philly area where I dropped her off, and I made the last 60 miles back to Jersey. I've been here since Sunday, and I could not be missing the mountains more.

Relocating is one of the more stressful things humans do, topped off with starting Grad school in a week, not having a mode of transportation, not having a job, having $1.50 to my name, and leaving my love 1776.5 miles away. The last being the most stressful.

I know there are worst things in life, and I'm actually pretty damn lucky to be in the position that I'm in. I'm enrolled in a great school that allows me a promising professional future along with free room and board with my mom and stepdad. I still can't help but think of the "what-ifs." I'm terrified of losing the person I want to spend the rest of my life with for something like a graduate program. It's a justified reason to leave, but means peanuts in the big picture of life.

My heart is breaking which is the reason for the unhappy post. Very few things make me happy for more than a couple minutes right now, before I fall back into my sad and dreary state of mind. I left Colorado knowing that I will return again and that this seperation is only temporary. I still can't help but think how far 2000 miles is. It's killing me and I've never felt such heartache in my life.

Again, apologizing for the depressing post. I don't even want any words of encouragement or suggestions on how to feel better. I've heard it all already. I'd rather just sit and be sad and cry myself to sleep.


And if I'm unreachable for an extended period of time, it's because I packed my camelback and started to walk west.