tick tick tick tick...

I'm procrastinating. I have quite a large Immunology exam this week constituting half of my entire grade for the class. I never liked Immunology and I don't particularly enjoy studying for it as a result. (Of course, which subject do I actually "enjoy" studying for?)

I'm going into my 6th week of school and my life is nothing but class, study, work, and some sleep. I knew it coming into this year, so I can't complain. I brought it on myself. However, it does make me question whether or not this is a lifestyle that I want for the next 5 or 6 years. Geezes, I'll be almost 30 by the time I'm finished Medical School. Justin and I talk of a wedding a couple years from now, but we certainly can't start a family until I'm done with school. Even the immediate couple years following graduation will be intense with residencies, and by then I'm in my early 30's. Hard to imagine a 23 year old hearing her biological clock tick, but I'm being realistic.

This is all such big kid stuff to be thinking about. It's exciting and frightening all at the same time. When did we get "old" and start thinking of all these lifelong decisions? I feel like graduation from college was the portal that differentiated a young college student without a care in the world from a mature young adult who is thinking of marriage and kids. Granted, I took an additional year off where time stood still for me, but not the rest of the world. I guess it's all catching up at once.

Time is moving quickly. Every year is relatively shorter than the previous.

...And I'm pretty sure I'm having a quarter life crisis....again...


Meanwhile, every hour is also shorter than the previous and Immunology is calling my name.